2005-06-05
Fears put to rest.
Today was a pretty good day for me, besides not being able to .. 'study' this morning. That woulda made the day sooo much better. But I liked it anyways.
My father hasn't called me yet, telling me if I'm coming up to see him for the summer or not. Truth be told, I'm kind of dreading going up there (if I do go up there at all). Because.. I don't know why.. but for the last 3 years or so, it hurts me. Emotionally, not physically. I get ridiculed by my family members who I thought loved me. Things of value are stolen from me. A bunch of things! And usually I end up on the phone crying to my mother, begging her to take me home even though my ticket says I can't go for another.. week or so. Although, if I do go this year, I'll get to see my baby cousins that I haven't seen in.. years! Literally. And I might be able to work at Vicky's shop, and earn some money for Anizona coming up. I forgot to add that I'm going as.. Kurama! I'm so getting chased by fan girls, but who says that's a bad thing? ^_~
I don't know what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. From what Megan tells me, my choice to be a writer sucks because I'll get really bad pay. I know thaaat. That's why I have my wrestling thing as a back up =D. Also.. I thought about being a veterinarian because I love animals so much. I just might do that..
One of these days, I'm going to be such a cute and gorgeous girl. I'll be so pretty that Kurama would be proud to have me as a fan girl!.. Just an aspiration of mine. Don't see that happening though. ~pokes my stomach~
I've come to a conclusion. FROSTED FLAKES GYPPED MEEEE!! Well no there is another thing, but I had to get that off of my chest. I'm going to slap that damn box soon. But here's my ultimate conclusion: I'm not going to let my paranoia get the better of me when it comes to my boyfriend. He loves me, and I should believe it. I'm not going to delude myself into thinking he's cheating on me when he isn't. I'm not going to be a bad girlfriend in that aspect. I should try to be more open with him, though. (Wow, this comes up now when there's a two year relationship already established.) I'm such a shutterbox! Oh well. I love him, and that's aall that really matters. .. Still don't believe him when he says I'm beautiful, though.. Liar.
-Faust
faust-8 at 2:04 a.m.