2005-08-10
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I'm a high school graduate now, as of yesterday. It seems so surreal to me.. like.. wow. I'm not going to go to high school anymore. I'm going to go to college, then onto a university, where there I will become a veterinarian. Wow.
Chris is acting kind of strangely. He'll say hi to me, then stop talking. It makes me wonder what he's up to. I'm sure he's busy or something. Nikki talked to me last night.. and made it very clear she's still in love with me. After.. nearly two years of being separated, she won't let me go. I suppose it's kind of my fault for giving her hope.. I hug her and I smile at her, and she takes it as though I still love her. >< Damn me. Fuck. Someday she'll fall in love with someone else, and know what it's really like, just like I did. And then.. she'll hate me. Oh well. Better her hate me than still being in love with me. Damn it all to hell.
Something's wrong.. and I can feel it.
-Faust.
faust-8 at 8:54 a.m.